Sunday Scripture

My goal is to constantly remind myself that God is in control and will bring good results out of my struggles.

When times are good be happy; but when times are bad, consider: God has made the one as well as the other. Therefore, a man cannot discover anything about his future.
Ecclesiastes 7:14

First week of VPK

Monday: First day of VPK with Miranda's teacher, Ms. Tawny. Miranda is so happy to be back in school. She didn't quite understand why she had to have all this time off for "summer." Happy first day of school.
Tuesday: The second day of school was canceled due to Tropical Storm Fay. We had lots of rain and wind and some flooding. Even though, there was no school, we did have a science lesson about weather.
Wednesday: Counting cards in school? Ummm.....not quite but that does count as a math lesson, doesn't it??? This is mommy and daddy being creative because there is still no school and the internet and tv were down most of the day.

What does Thursday and Friday have in store? Well it's not school that's for sure. The rain and the wind are gone but not the floods. So, our wonderful school system has decided to CANCEL school for the rest of the week! With cabin fever sneaking in what othersubjects can we teach at home?

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make me SAD. It's sad to face reality and know that Miranda may never be a big sister. She may never get the chance to help mommy feed a baby, hold a baby, play with a baby and have that chance to be a sister. She may never have the chance to be a sibling. Or get the chance to make wonderful memories, laugh, get into trouble, play, and all the other great things that go along with having a brother or sister. Time is not on my side and neither are statistics. Seeing the GYN the other day really made me realize that it might not ever happen. I might not have another baby. Yes, it is possible but the chances are very slim. Talking with the dr. the other day, he pointed out that I really didn't have 4 miscarriages, I really had 9. And that hurt, and stung, and made me really sad. I had 3 losses before Miranda, 1 loss after and the 5 embryo's we lost because they were unbalanced when we tried IVF 2 years ago. If you look at my statistics, we had Miranda with a 25% chance of having a child. She is a TRUE miracle and we are BLESSED. But, it doesn't take away the hunger for another baby. Another child to carry, nuture and raise. And now seeing that my odds have dwindled down to a 10% chance. I've left it in God's hands. And I know ALL things are possible with GOD. And if GOD wants us to have another child it will happen. But, for now, I'm still sad.

More dentist pics

X-rays, cleaning and then the finished product: a shining STAR!

1st

visit to the DENTIST. I've kind of been missing out on all those 1st's. Like 1st bath, foods, tooth, steps, haircut, birthday, etc. It's kind of sad not being able to experience 1st's like I did when Miranda was a baby. Well yesterday I got to experience another 1st. Going to the dentist. For me, it brought back horrible memories of the dentist. I had one of the worst experiences of the dentist growing up. I didn't want Miranda to experience what I experienced. I was really apprehensive for her, but I didn't show her. She was all excited when we told her she would be going. She knew she would get a new toothbrush (probably a princess) and pick from a treasure box. But the morning we were supposed to go all that changed. She didn't want to go, she was moping around, whining and clingy. I was feeling sick to my stomach, having flashbacks of the horrid things I went through, but I was staying cheery for her sake. As you can see from the first picture when she arrived she was NOT happy to be there. Let me tell you what, this is the Dentist of all Dentist's. This place rocked! They are awesome with kids and really worked with them to feel comfortable. Where was this dentist when I was a kid? You walk in the office and feel like your at the movies. They have a movie playing, movie signs posted and your child's name on a bulletin board that says, "now starring". When they call you back they have an area to play video games to try to get them relaxed. Miranda isn't in to video games so she passed. Then they brush their teeth so the assistant can see how well they do it. Miranda got 5 stars on brushing! That's my girl. The x-rays took the longest. But let me tell you how far they've come since I was a kid. You don't have to bite down on those paper bite wings anymore. It's all digital. You place this little box in your mouth and they snap a picture that pops up on the screen immediately. How cool is that. We got to see her permanent teeth behind her baby teeth. The technology today amazes me. Next onto the cleaning which is a big open area. She got to pick her own seat and had star sunglasses to put on, all while she's watching a movie above. She was a champ for the cleaning and flouride treatment. Speaking of the flouride treatment, there's no goopy trays anymore. They simply paint it on with a mini paintbrush. No waiting 5 hours to eat and drink. I was throughly impressed. Miranda was such a big girl. I was so proud of her. She even woke up this morning wanting to know if we were going back to the dentist again. Plus, she made the "no cavity club" and her name was put on another bulletin board. Her toothbrush of choice.........Ariel.

P&P

Yesterday was a P&P sort of day. We've been laying low this week, trying to figure out if Miranda is sick or what's going on. It doesn't want to rear it's ugly head. I guess that's good and all but I'd like definite signs and symptoms so I can treat them accordingly. Hoping you don't get 'bored', we P&P'd yesterday. Well paint and playdoh of course. I don't like to bring out playdoh all that often. In fact I don't think she's played with playdoh but maybe 2 times in 2008. It's the little crumbs that get stuck in the grout that really bother me. No matter how many times you vacuum you still see hot pink playdoh on the floor. And paint, well do I really need to explain further? Somehow she manages to get is all up her arms and yes even in her nose, but again the floor is what really gets me. Thank goodness for washable paint. And yesterday she told me of every little dribble, so I cleaned it up immediately. She did much better then I expected; only 2 little dribbles. It was still all up her arm. But, that really made for a colorful shower. The best part of the day was hearing 'mommy, thank you for letting me be an artist.' And of course seeing the finished product. I guess today will be part 2 for at least the painting as she didn't finish her project yesterday. Here's to another day with the artist.