Devastating Loss

Well it's been almost 3 weeks since we lost all our embryos. We were devastated! We still are but we are trying to move on with our lives and figure out what God has in store for us. Sometimes it's hard to listen to Him and realize that it is His plan and not ours. It is even harder not being in control. When you want something so bad and cannot have it, no matter what you do......it can make you a little crazy. How did I cope? I thought for sure I would need antidepressants or a therapist. Having 3 previous miscarriages sent me into a depression awhile back but I worked through it. This time was different. I don't know how to explain it but I am okay. I'm trying to take one day at a time and be thankful for what I have. Yes, somedays are harder than others but I get through them. Someone once told me "Everyday is a good day, some are just better than others." I have to keep telling myself that. I gave myself a good pity party for 2 days and then I moved on. And I'm keeping on moving on.
What is our next step? Since this IVF procedure depleted our whole savings we can't afford to do anymore. And since our insurance doesn't cover it, we can't do anymore. We know it can happen because we have our miracle child, Miranda. We have to perservere and believe and have faith that God will grant us another miracle one day.