UNBELIEVABLE

4. THAT'S THE NUMBER.
4 LOSSES.
4 MISCARRIAGES.
4 ANGELS IN HEAVEN
4 TIMES OF DEVASTATION.
4 TIMES OF SADNESS.
4 TIMES OF GETTING OUR HOPES UP JUST BE LET DOWN AGAIN.

We found out on Jan. 25 that we were pregnant again. It is a time to be joyful for everyone else but us. You hear the excitement in their voices. You see the elation on their faces. Everyone who is pregnant can shout it out to the world when they find out. But, not us. It's not a time of happiness, it's a time to be guarded. A time when you know the odds are against you. You want to be happy just like the rest of the world, but you can't.
I ended up in the ER on Sunday with horrible pain on my left side only. We ruled out an ectopic pregnancy. Thank God. Yesterday, I end up with the flu; achiness, fever, chills. Then the cramps started. And then last night, the LOSS. Number 4!